Thursday, May 20, 2010

Celebrate life!!!

I have both a brother and a sister who were born in May, like me. It's quite something to have three Tauruses in the family--even when they are as different as we are. We have some personality traits in common: stubborness, being practical, enjoying the good life, to name a few.
Marco is stable, dependable and hard-working. Sofia is ethereal, she's an artist. And I'm the dreamer, the idealist, the missionary.
For my birthday a few of my friends on facebook dedicated me a song each. One of them dedicated "Celebrate Life" from Axel Fernando, an Argentine singer--first time ever I heard that song. I liked so much--the lyrics are fantastic, expresses the choices in life one should make. In turn I want to dedicate this song to Marco and Sofia with all my love and the prayer that this will be a wonderful year for them. That they will enjoy each moment and each experience life will bring along.

I don’t know if I was dreaming,
I don’t know if I was sleeping,
And the voice of an angel
Said to tell you:
Celebrate life.

Think freely,
Help everyone,
And for what you want
Fight and be patient.

Carry a light load
Don’t hold on to anything
Because in this world
Nothing is forever.

Look for a star
To be your guide,
Hurt no one
Spread joy.

Celebrate life, celebrate life,
Because nothing is saved
Everything is shared.
Celebrate life, celebrate life,
Second by second and every day.

If someone betrays you
When they say “I love you,”
Put more wood in the fire
And start over.

Don’t allow your dreams
To fall to the ground
The more you love
The closer the sky is.

Shout against hatred
Against lies,
Because war is death,
And peace is life.

Celebrate life, celebrate life,
Because nothing is saved
Everything is shared.
Celebrate life, celebrate life,
Second by second.

I don’t know if I was dreaming,
I don’t know if I was sleeping,
And the voice of an angel
Said to tell you:
Celebrate life, celebrate life
And leave in the earth your best seed
Celebrate life, celebrate life
Which is much more beautiful when you look at me.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

When all you need is love

I will never forget it--it was my birthday a few years back, and I had come to the end of myself; at the moment it felt I wouldn't be able to make it thru another minute of my life.

Looking back, now that time has healed everything, it seems quite silly--but back then, having my boyfriend tell me he didn't love me anymore, felt like having the whole world come tumbling over and crushing me.
He said that he had been doing some thinking--that he was sorry, but he didn't feel the same way he used to; that he didn't want to hurt me but it was over between us.

I had no idea--I was so sure of his love for me. I thought this was it! This time it was the real thing and we were living the dream of love.

He said we could be friends--but I couldn't because I loved him like I've never loved before and I didn't want to be just friends.
Soon after he told me he was in love with my best friend and he hoped I would be able to help to get them together. He said his feelings for her were so strong, and he knew they were meant to be. And I really don't know how I managed to sit there and have him convince me that I should help him get the girl of his dreams.

Because we worked together, we saw each other and every day was worse that the one before. Not a day would pass by that I wouldn't hide in some corner to cry all my dissappointments away, suffering the pain of loss and rejection.

We were going to go to another city to do a program for children and bring clothes and shoes. We had been planning this trip for a while and we were both part of the team--I would have given anything to be able to back out and not go. But I had to go; so I put my best face, tried to be strong and fake the smiles and the laughter, for the children's sake.
It was right on my birthday--and I just knew that this would be the worse day of my life!

We went to visit a home for handicapped children. All of us stood at the door, as the director showed us into a living room where some kids were sitting waiting for us. The door on the other end opened and some more kids came in, and then from behind a little girl with bangs and sweet brown eyes, came running in. She rushed from the other side of the room, straight into my arms. Instinctively I caught her and swept her up into a hug, as she rested her head on my shoulder.

This little angel, who had never seen me in her life, spotted me out of the crowd and jumped into my arms--to remind me that love is there when you need it the most.



That one little act of love turned what started as a miserable day, into one of the happiest birthdays of my life. There's a song by the Beatles that says
"All you need is love"--how true!